Stayed over at east coast ytd with my church small grp. I realised I've distant from God alot. Have not touch my bible for months, have not do my quiet time for months, have not prayed for don't know how long. When I'm through all this, I realised I didn't asked God for guidence.

Was self-reflecting through the whole night. I understood God made me go through all this to let me understand how others felt when I did this exact thing to someone. (hahs! you should know I'm talking about YOU) Also to realise my wrong, my flaws.

My mother and friends all said they miss my smile, my craziness, my super talkative mouth. I also realised I've not being smiling and talking much the past weeks, kept going into my own small world.

I know what to do alrdy! Don't make everyone worry anymore!

So sad, ate too much ytd, feel like i became fatter : D so I'm off to swim and tan...